I haven’t been writing. I’ve been thinking about writing a lot, I’ve been feeling guilty about NOT writing, but I haven’t been writing.
It’s not that I don’t want to, I just feel stuck. I’m currently debating the wisdom of rewriting my beginning entirely. Not just rewriting it to make it sound better, but rewriting it in a way that would change the story entirely, that would change Adrianna and her way of looking at the world. If I decide to change the beginning this way, I am changing the entire book.
I don’t know if that’s the right thing to do, and I feel paralyzed by my indecision.
I’ve spent 10 days trying to decide now, and I’m no closer to knowing the right choice than I was when I first started wondering. Are these changes right for me? Are they right for my story? I just don’t know.
I don’t feel like this is writer’s block – I am still weaving chapters and scenes in my head, but I can’t move forward until I have decided on the direction I need to go.
I believe I have a good story on my hands, but would it be better if I scrap the whole thing and start again?
Small wonder I’ve been avoiding my computer. I think I’ll go back to knitting now.